Well this week was a sleepless one, but what else is new. I am getting used to doing everything in a haze from lack of sleep. I have mastered the art of sleeping sitting up in bed while holding sleeping Maxx on the boppy with all sorts of pillows around us. He HATES to be put down at night mostly and I HATE to sleep sitting up. Sometimes my neck and shoulders are so stiff that I have to use my hand to move my head to look at my nightstand and grab a diap or a breast pad, it is that stiff.
My husband is kind, gentle, the best Daddy to our kids, fun, silly, affectionate, loving and so much more. I love his more everyday. Here is to many more years to come.
I am usually a good diaper changer, I have had two plus years with Lexx and much more from babysitting and what not. Well, a couple days ago on one sleepless night I had a big problem! I was changing Maxx and about to nurse him. Well he had a little poop in there, so I wiped him up and started to get the clean diaper under him. Then he pooped, like projectile poop. This had never happened before, it got all over my arm, shirt and pillow. Like ALL OVER. It was bad, I had to wake up Justin and get him to take Maxx so I could go wash my arm, change my shirt and get a new pillow case. Maxx was screaming, hungry and not wanting Daddy. Oh the joys of nighttime feedings and diaper changes!!
My blog needs some serious help. I need to know how to add side columns and just organize it better overall. Can anyone help me?? I think I would blog more then.
I didn't realize how much I have neglected my blog! I am going to TRY and be a better blogger. A lot has happened since I last blogged. Most importantly, I am pregnant again! Currently 21 weeks and 4 days to be exact. We are having a baby boy and couldn't feel more blessed about it. He is perfect and we can't wait to meet him! Lexxie doesn't understand what is going on yet, but she will soon. She is going to be a great big sister, bossy I am sure but loving too. More to come....
I have been told getting it out is a good thing to do. I miscarried what was to be my second baby in January. I thought I was 11 and a half weeks along but when the midwife couldn't get a heartbeat she had me go for an ultrasound and we found out the baby had passed away at 9 weeks but my body was holding on to the baby. The midwife wouldn't do a D & C so I had to use these pills that basically make you dilate and pass the baby, it was horrible. I didn't go through labor with Lexxie because I had a c-section due to my heart problem, so I had no idea how bad it was going to hurt psychically. The emotional pain ran much deeper though. I was so excited to be pregnant, to have a sibling for Lexx and we wanted our baby. I am still so sad, hurt and mad. This should not have happened, it just shouldn't have. I saw the baby on two different occasions on the ultrasound and everything was fine. Just the other day would have been my babies due date and it was really hard, I had plans, hopes and dreams for the baby and none of it will happen. I just want to know at what point will I start feeling better? Of course the pain has dulled a bit but there are constant reminders...pregnant women, newborn babies, etc. It just hurts so bad still. I am so thankful for Lexxie, she truely is my heart and soul. I don't know what I would do without my sweet girl.
I am 30 years old, married for almost 8 years, and the mother of Lexxie (4 1/2), Maxx (almost 2), and Roxxie (3 months). My children are my greatest accomplishment, and being their Mommy is a dream come true. There was a point in time where we didn't think being parents was something we would get to experience.
