It's 1 am and I need to vent

I am tired.
Tired of thinking about everything we lost.
Tired of wondering if we will get there again.
Tired of school.
Tired of people saying it could be worse (even though I know it could.)
Tired of never having enough money.
Tired of comparing myself and our situation to others who have it much better right now.
Tired of being jealous.
Tired of being tired.
But NEVER tired of loving these two faces more than I can even begin to explain....

They make everything okay.

Feeling sad....

I am just having one of those times where all I seem to think about is the bad things that have happened. I really think that we have experienced more loss, heartache, hard times and rough patches than anyone should at one time. I know things have to get better, they have to right?? Well, I have thought that many times things were starting to look up....and then low and behold NOPE they don't.
Of course the light in my life is Lexxie, she is my heart and soul. I love her so much. We are so lucky to have such a smart, beautiful and fun girl.
School keeps me busy too, I love it. In about a month I will have 24 units complete! It's going by quick and I am SO GLAD.